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I can’t believe its been four weeks since Andy finished the PCT!

After his finish we decided on a more leisurely pace and visited Vancouver for a big city fix.  It was great for Andy to have some “real food”.  His big craving was for sushi and what better place than Asian-infused Vancouver to pacify his fixation?  We ordered out for pick-up — more food than what four people could ever eat, when there was just two of us and somehow Andy polished it all off.

The stimulation of the city wore off quickly, so we decided to ditch the car and catch a ferry to the beautiful and quaint Victoria.  On our way out of town Andy yelped a cute little vegetarian dive and we met up with an extraordinarily persistent fan.  A young woman had been emailing me every couple of days since learning about Andy’s side trip to Yakima with offers of rides, housing and general support in the hopes of meeting Andy.  Finally, I thought it must be fate, and suggested Andy call her.  I guess it’s nice to meet with your fans now and then.

We had a quick visit to Victoria, cut short when we learned the Clipper (fancy boat that would take us to Seattle) only left port once a day and we’d need to leave the next night.

While in Seattle we visited the Chihuly glass exhibit. A dose of culture always does a body and mind some good and this was awesome. Incredible outside glass garden too.

The clipper was a smooth ride into downtown Seattle, full of ease for crossing back into the states without the hassle of customs.  Our hotel happened to be in the complex of a Whole Foods market, which was our first stop after checking in.  We did a quick stock up on fresh fruit, veggies, gourmet cheese and of course, pizza.  Pizza has turned out to be a constant craving since Andy’s gotten off the trail.

The next day, after a visit and lunch to Pike’s Market and the Space Needle, we were picked up by our favorite trail angel Deon who works for Seattle Genetics (Seagen).  She had invited Andy on a tour of the bio-genetics company that makes the newly advanced chemo-drug for relapsed Hodgkin’s disease.  Vidoten, the drug he had to walk all the way to Yakima (2,200 miles) to find out about.  (I have a real bone to pick with City of Hope)

After Andy finished the trail we stopped off in Seattle to visit Seagen with our trail angel Deon. We also had a chance to visit with Gourmet and Dave.

So, there we were at Seagen, Andy still scruffy from the trail with wild hair and an unruly beard, refusing to wear close-toed shoes, so in flip-flops with socks on.  But at least Andy’s has his European flat cap that that gives him a little air of dignity.  We’re feeling a bit awkward around a formal company who engineered a chemo-drug after we’d made an informal pact to shift gears from western medicine, its scare tactics and toxic chemicals and now coming full circle and meeting the two chemists who made vidoten.  We were put at ease right away with the laid-atmosphere and friendliness of everyone.

Andy’s first question was did they have the ball and stick model of the components of the chemical configuration?  Only Andy would ask that.  We had a fun little tour of the lab and a historical prospective of the company and the 10 years plus it took to develop and get it FDA approved.  The corporate employees made up an intimate little reception where Andy shared his story to a receptive group in awe of his journey.  They were so happy to meet an ‘end user’, seems that Hodgkin’s Lymphoma patients don’t show up at corporate headquarters often.

We happen to live within a two hour drive of the Pacific Crest Trail and were up around the Big Bear and Lake Arrowhead area and decided to take a hike and reminisce about life on the trail. Andy seems happiest when he’s outside in nature, surrounded by trees and a big blue sky!

Fast forward to home . . . two days after we got home it’s a trip to the oncologist to meet yet another new Doctor.  Our criteria this time is a small office that is close to home, a Dr. who is accessible by phone and doesn’t have a barrage of staff protecting him/her and is open-minded to alternative therapies.  It’s been such a long time since we were in a regular Dr.’s office.  Those small little rooms where you sit there waiting, our eyes darting around the room, searching for something encouraging to say or looking for something to distract us from the reality of what is soon to come – a walk down a familiar path of getting treated for cancer.  You can just feel the various emotions arise – fear and dread being uppermost on the list.

Three days later it’s infusion number two.  The morning is tense with expectation and anxiety.  Not this again.  It seems as though Andy woke up that day nauseated.  This is totally normal and predictable in all patients that have been treated with chemotherapy.  The psyche is conditioned to remember the past trauma associated with what happens during an infusion – the unsettled stomach, the itchy skin, sometimes a hot flash or two and then . . .

We make it all a reality.  Clearly we weren’t prepared.  I blame myself for not insisting that Andy have a practical lunch, instead I rely on an inner mantra “he’s 23 and can make his own decisions”.  What I come to realize later is that the fear of what is to come sort of paralyzes him from thinking rationally and taking care of lining his stomach with some good absorbing foods.  He did not eat lunch.

We settle into the infusion room, get the chair to just the right angle and avoid eye contact or conversing with the other people nearby, one getting an infusion, the other there to support him.  It appears to be a husband and wife and clearly they are not there to socialize.  We can take our ques.  Andy gets his first pre-med, dexamethazone (a steroid) and then some extra-strength Tylenol for good measure.  Then we begin the vidoten.  Shortly into it Andy begins to perspire, then the bright red hives begin to appear on his forehead.  The room somehow gets smaller and feels a little intense with anticipation.  Andy begins to get agitated and says he’s nauseated and going to throw-up.  And before we know it he has.  Stop the infusion; let’s get some benadryl.

The couple that was next to us has quietly moved to another part of the infusion room.  Apparently no one wants to be so close to vomit – it’s so messy.  Our little corner starts to settle down a little as the benadryl works its magic and we restart the vidoten.

Here we are at the top of the Cougar Crest Trail where it intersects the PCT. It was fun to get out there and feel really nostalgic about the trail. In our own way all of us hiked this trail with Andy (Astro) including all of you — thank you for your words of encouragement. If you’re reading this I hope you have a Happy Thanksgiving! So much to be thankful for!

Andy says it was much easier being on the PCT, surrounded by nature and wondering about where the next water source was, how many more miles to go and what am I going to eat at my next stop?

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My Hero!

Guest Blog Entry by:  Michael Gosselin (Astro’s Stepdad)

He did it!!!

When I dropped Astro (he wasn’t Astro yet) off on April 7th this spring at the PCT monument that sits at the California – Mexico border, honestly, I have to admit, I thought would be an impossible journey for him to finish.

Set aside the somewhat tenuous condition of his health, walking 2,660 miles over some very tough terrain seems like a long shot for even the fittest of any individual to complete.  I feel very fortunate to have caught up with him along the trek and walked parts of the trail in Big Bear Lake and Mammoth Lakes in California and then again in the  Cascade Lakes area in southern Washington.

Astro and Michael at the finish.

Each time I saw him he looked a little thinner and a little more “beaten up.”  But one thing was for certain, his resolve and determination never waivered.  I saw before me a brave young man that was certain he would finish this epic trek.  I think it surprised most of us, when a tumor on his spine forced him into the ER in a hospital in Yakima, WA he did not even consider it an “excuse” to get off the trail.

Instead, he got a chemotherapy infusion on a Wednesday morning and was back on the trail on the very next day.  Several days after that he got caught in a nasty rain/sleet storm without adequate clothing or protection from the weather and had to walk 10+ miles in freezing rain to seek temporary refuge in a Lutheran camp, only accessible by boat or foot.  Imagine the look on these folks faces when a very wet, shivering, grungy looking hiker shows up in the middle of a pitch-black rainy night.  They took him in easily, offering food, refuge and a warm bed for the night.  Trail angels seen and unseen seemed to have watched over him each step of the way.

When he discussed this incident later with me, he told me “it was the closest he had ever come to death.”  Given his history with cancer, I thought this was an extremely strong statement to make.  And then once again, amazingly, when the weather cleared a bit he was back on the trail.

I had promised Astro long ago I would walk the last section of the trail with him as I thought it more than fitting that I share the final leg of the journey.  I had started this with him six and a half months ago back in April and now he was close to the finish.  So, I met him in Hart’s Pass in Washington where we would hike the last 40 miles of the trail together.  Until the last two weeks of the journey, Astro had had near perfect weather for most of the hike, which is almost unheard of.  The weather was continuing to change which was going to make it more challenging.  It had started to rain the Cascade Mountain range.  The Rrain was turning into sleet and then into snow, this is definitely not fun on the trail.  Neither of us really had adequate weather gear to deal with these elements.  Not once did Astro complain.  He just trudged on fearless with determination knowing the northern terminus of the PCT was near.

Gourmet, on the left, is Astro’s friend he met at the beginning of the trail who came back to finish with him again! Astro, Michael in Manning Park.

Just after 4:30 p.m. on October 19th he reached the monument marking the end of the trail and the Canadian border.  We hugged and we cried as we celebrated his completion of his through-hike of the 2,660 mile long Pacific Crest Trail.  I have never been prouder of one person’s accomplishment.  As I said above, hiking the Pacific Crest trail is in and of itself an amazing feat.  Less people complete that Pacific Crest Trail than have climbed Mt. Everest.

Team Astro — Dave, Astro, Michael, Deon, Betsy (mom) (top). Gourmet (Marc) and Karen. This was the crew that worked to get Andy to the finish!

When you factor the fact that Andy has cancer and is coping with a certain amount of pain, into the equation, it seems almost impossible that he made it to the end of the trail.  I want you to know that Astro is my hero and I shout a HUGE congratulations on a job especially well done!!!

Andy’s story is filled with so many amazing people that helped him along the way. In an interesting twist, these three beautiful women who live in Seattle had been following this blog for awhile and were inspired by Astro’s story. They made some calculations and determined when he would be getting off the trail. They drove to Manning Park and started walking towards him, determined to welcome him to the finish, and they did! These photos and more are credited to these beautiful angels!

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He Made It! Astro Andy finished the Pacific Crest Trail!

Mile 2668.  0 to go.  He’s done!

Astro Andy finished the Pacific Crest Trail on Saturday afternoon at 4:30 pm.  He was accompanied by his step-dad, Michael, trail-mate Gourmet (Marc) and new friend Dave.  We are decompressing now in Vancouver.  It’s been a whirlwind past four days . . . will send more as we unwind and settle in.

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Amazing TV News Story!

Hi Faithful Followers!

When Andy and I were in Yakima he was interviewed by the local TV station, but we thought it never made it on air because the Presidential debates seemed so much more important at the time.  Go figure.  Click this link (I hope it works).  The story did air on October 11th and we never even knew!

http://www.keprtv.com/news/local/I-looked-death-in-the-eye-172779211.html?tab=video&c=y

Thanks for following and all your love and support.  I’ve got a plane to catch . . . .

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The end is near, or is it a New Beginning?

Mile 2,642.    8 miles to the finish.

What an adventure it has been! Bigger than we ever even imagined.

Getting ready to leave for Canada today.  I can hardly believe the end of the journey is in sight.  Even though I haven’t walked the entire trail with my own two feet, it feels as though I’ve trekked along beside Astro (Andy) every step of the way.  Always wondering when the next phone call would come, anticipating what angst he would reveal or what beauty he would interpret.  And living through it vicariously.

So many of our phone calls were filled with talks about food, what he longed for and what he was sick of.  But we had other talks too, the things reserved for a mom’s ears to hear, the fear, the excitement, the anxiety, the loneliness, the unpredictability of it all.  Even though we each experience that in our daily lives, I believe its more heightened on the trail because of that one basic need — water — the constant thought of water — when will I run out?, where will I find more? and will I have enough? — these thoughts consume much of a thru-hikers daily activity.  When do we ever wonder when our next glass of water will come from?

The plans to meet have all been laid.  But I’m holding them very lightly, because plans do change or reorganize themselves in fascinating ways, especially when it comes to Andy.  Along the trail, during our chats through the little towns that dot the PCT, we talked about the future and what he would do next.  Andy always thinks big, and I always go along.  Because quite honestly, with Andy anything is possible.

Tomorrow my dad (Andy’s Grandpa), his sister, and his best friend since kindergarten will get on early morning flights to Seattle and then rent a car and drive to Manning Park, Canada.  I’ve tried to keep this surprise under wraps, but by now Andy might already suspect there is a welcoming party at the end of this long journey.  And it’s not just family, there is also a contingency of supporters that have been inspired by his journey, and by all the PCT-thru hikers and what an amazing accomplishment this is in so many ways.  The courage, the audacity, the spirit to leave life as you know it and take an adventure into the unknown, WOW, when have you ever done that?  It can only take you more deeply into yourself and that can be a scary place sometimes, or a marvelous adventure.

Andy’s Adventure had an unexpected detour that only strengthened his resolve to carry on, to see this thing to the end.  He could have gotten off the trail, but he didn’t.  What courage, what strength.

Coming soon! This is the monument at the Washington / Canadian border that signifies the end of a long journey, a pilgrimage that takes these thru-hikers to places they never even imagined. Congratulations to all the thru-hikers who made your dream a reality. I salute you!

The future ahead is riddled with unknowns.  When I look deep into my practice as a meditator, I recognize that the unknown is the truth of all of our futures — it is really all unknown. (Well, there is one thing for certain.)  I’ve learned over these past years living with Andy’s cancer that anything is possible and right now he is vitally alive and we are vitally alive, so we are going to really LIVE and CELEBRATE this amazing accomplishment this weekend.

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Making Plans

Mile 2574.    89 miles to the finish.

Last spoke to Astro (Andy) last Wednesday morning as he headed back on the trail through a very remote area – destination Stehekin.  This is where his very last food drop is and today is the very last day he can catch the boat to get to the Post Office, that has very limited hours, to pick it up.  Hoping to hear from him, but word is that there is no cell coverage and the satellite phone at the lodge is $5 a minute.  Will he make it there and will he call?

At least he’s got new rain gear — over-nighted to him at the last stop – the weather is reporting rain.  Imagine rain in the Pacific Northwest in October, duh.

When we last spoke Andy he reported his leg is doing better, the sensation is coming back.  Only problem is he has been over compensating with the left side of his body for so long that he’s out of balance – the left side is much stronger than the right.  Crazy – but if you talk to any PCT-thru hiker they’ve all got some kind of bodily pain, injury, break, or bruise – it just goes with the territory – especially at mile 2574!

Tomorrow Andy’s step-dad, Michael, leaves to join Andy on the trail at Rainy Pass to hike the 68 miles to the finish at Manning Park, Canada.  Michael has been in Andy’s life now for over thirteen years – he is an out-doorsy guy and loves hiking, biking and fishing.  It was Michael who nurtured and kindled the love affair of nature and the outdoors for Andy through camping, back backing and mountain climbing.  Together they have climbed Mt. Whitney and Mt. Rainier.  It is with both enthusiasm and trepidation that I wish him ‘safe journey.’  Happy that he will accompany Andy on this last leg, concern over his ability to endure the elements and difficult terrain.  I am soothed by the fact that Andy will be greatly comforted by Michael’s presence.

Here in Southern California it’s warm, sunny and 88 degrees. Michael leaves tomorrow to join Andy where it’s cold, windy with predictions of possible snow.

In another minor mini miracle, two other hikers will be joining Michael and Andy at Rainy Pass as they cross over from Washington into Canada.  Fellow PCT-thru hiker and friend ‘Gourmet’ (Marc Fendel), who started with Andy in April and finished the PCT a few weeks ago is going along for the ride.  And Gourmet’s friend, fellow Seattleite Dave Leffmann, will be joining as well.  All of this came about through our favorite Trail Angel Deon English!

I’m in the midst of making plans to meet Andy at the end of the trail in Manning Park, Canada.  I’ve got some surprises, that I’ve got to keep under wraps for now, lest he get wind and find out because I’ve written about them in the blog.

News Flash:  Just heard from Astro.   Said its been absolutely miserable out there the last few days – cold and rainy every day and all of his stuff is completely wet.  He said he shivered on the trail and worried about hypothermia.  He decided at the last minute to take a detour by himself to a town called Holden Village, a little Lutheran Village . . . . only accessible by boat unless . . . . . . . . you’ll have to keep following!

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I Hope So!

Somewhere Around Mile 2500 now.

Astro recorded this somewhere around Cascade Locks.   Hear Andy’s  voice as he expresses his dream to finish the PCT.

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